DELIVERED with TRUTH but NOT set FREE.
There was a time in my life, I questioned why I would sin against God and go back the next week to ask for forgiveness then dream of all the things I would quit physically but mentally still invited. At some point i grew bitter,i would medicate, talk to myself about how i am the biggest joker of the year for not having a stand, sometimes i would cry or laugh at myself .when the day is over i would calculate all the things i wasn't meant to think, act, and Speak. I distanced myself from asking for forgiveness from God because I knew I wasn't sure to be faithful the next week. I asked some persons why we would willingly sin and still go back to God when we could quit most of the sins we asked for forgiveness unfortunately their answers did not justify the reasons. I finally discovered I cheated on God countless times because I could and I was enslaved in the mentality that the love and blood he shed will speak for my sins and save me from hell. A misguided conception
God's love should not make you continue to live in sin. This is taking God's love for granted.
(hebrew 10:25-31) don't be fooled, whatever a man sow he will reap.
Our past sins can so greatly consume our present that it makes no difference if we run or change environment. It's hard to change without mental transformation .quoting Dr. Myles " Without mental TRANSFORMATION, the actions we take to "change" may only produce a new place where we will continue to do our OLD things.
I disregarded my ways, taking no responsibility at heart for the wrong deeds. I was selfish to myself and God, mostly to myself because obeying God's command is mostly for our own good. Many have been oppressed by their sins to say, "I can't be holy, i am a worm hoping for heaven and I hope I make it to heaven because I certainly can't be righteous on earth, I will sit and wait or do the little I can. The other would say I can't be freed from the sin so I am waiting for God's appointed time to miraculously free me from this sin. The funny and annoying one will say, don't teach me the words of God so if I go to hell, I will receive small punishment. Yes ! It's only God that can speedily convert a soul, but to change over night is your collective effort to listen and obey truth, but are all hands equal? will you sit, wait and remain in all kinds of sin?
John 14:15 KJV
If ye love me, keep my commandments.
John 14:21 KJV
He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.
John 14:23-24 KJV
Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.  He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.
I was motivated yesterday when I heard the priest reading the part when Jesus asked Peter do you love me ? Then he said feed my lamb.what do you love ? Whatever you love , you will grow and resemble it. Our love is tested by God through sacrifice.